Fatigue Much?

As a mother of three and a hard-working wife [I take my job seriously] there are plenty of times when I feel overwhelmed and tired. My sleep hours have been GREATLY diminished. There are times I just want to crawl under the bed, let alone the covers. Having twins is a great show-piece, not so great when they wake alternately. As soon as your through breastfeeding Angelique at 1:30am and dose off, here comes the wailing from a hungry GJ at 2:15am. Especially now, when they are both teething, have lost their appetites, appear to be in constant pain and are continuously miserable, it's easy to experience a break down.

I'm looking forward to a break, a vacation of sorts, where I can sleep uninterrupted for eight, no, make that nine hours; not whip my titties out every three to four hours. A break from bouncing babies on knees, wiping drool, burping, braiding hair, lulling to sleep etc. [you get where I'm going with this] I know I sound selfish right now, but I feel I'm entitled to sounding this way. Though we asked for kids, we sacrifice a lot to ensure they are happy, fed, and burped. Sleep is one of them, so EXCCUUUUUSSSEEE me for wanting nine hours of sleep.

I can tell you one thing for sure. A lot of abusive parents, even if they were abused themselves, if they had help: with their own kids and psychologically, the abuse wouldn't perpetuate. Stress is the catalyst for many a negative things. So imagine an abused mother feeling the strains of a cryng, teething toddler and being alone to handle all that stress....... Whenever I see where Gariece Sr. is feeling agitated, I send him away, or I take the kids up to my mom's house. Or I call in his mom to stay a few days. I don't want him to snap at the babies nor me [cause me'll answer him] and I couldn't imagine him running off and disappearing out of our lives. [yea, I'm a drama queen so what?]

I do wanna encourage the other parents reading my blog, to take time out for you, and for your hubby [if you're blessed to have 1] Makes no sense in driving yourself to the edge and being unable to pull yourself back.